I'm actually pretty proud of myself. At my lowest, I had lost 18.5 pounds...and I'm still within a half pound of that accomplishment! So yes, I haven't exercised in 18 days, and YES, I've been pretty lax with my eating on those days. But I haven't just allowed myself to indulge in a crazy free-for-all. Quite the contrary. I have started each day with the best of intentions, and I've weighed myself every single morning and written down every single thing I've eaten, though not always the exact measurements and calories. I haven't eaten all crap; I've eaten my usual healthy stuff PLUS some random crap. I have to say it: I've enjoyed my little "detour" immensely.
Now it's time to get back on the wagon. I've not only been slacking on my eating and exercising; I've avoided my blog, too. Now I'm back - with a new purpose and every bit of the determination I had that helped me shed the first 18.5 pounds.
I won't reach my goal of weighing 125 by the first week of June. I'm really OK with it. Would I have LOVED to reach that goal? Of course I would have! But all I can do now is set a new goal. In hindsight, I feel like losing 3.0 to 3.5 pounds per week was probably too ambitious for me. I know that it's possible to lose anywhere from 2.0 to 10.0 pounds in a week - but if it's water-weight you're losing, and if you go back to your old rotten eating habits afterward...the weight will creep back on. I'm trying really hard to set goals for myself that won't only be attainable, but will also be MAINtainable.
I am sick-and-fricking tired of the yo-yo effect. Even my best weeks on this new eating/exercise plan contained some of fluctuation. I realize that there is always going to be up and down happening on any scale, simply because we don't have any control over how fast we are digesting what we eat! I'm more referring to the "lose 3 pounds, gain one back...lose three pounds, gain one back" phenomenon. Or maybe I'm the only person on earth who this happens to???
I had plotted a course to hit 124.0 pounds by June 6th, based on a 3.0-pound weekly weight-loss. All-in-all not an overly-ambitious plan, but for me, ultimately unattainable. If I had not had the 18-day break in the middle, maybe I could have done it. My point is simply that the 18-day break means that I will NOT attain that particular goal. So today, I am setting new goals.
Today is actually May 13th, and I am writing two make-up posts. I like the continuity of it. It doesn't have anything to do with me being hopelessly OCD. Seriously.
So this post is for Monday, May 2. Back on that date, I was firmly in the throes of my lovely little mini-break. Here are listed some of the sinful things that I've treated myself to in the past 18 days, which, incidentally, are all strictly taboo on my regular diet plan:
Nilla wafers (by the handful!)
Yogurt-covered raisins (too high-cal, but a bit better than candy)
CEREAL (specifically Golden Grahams, Honey Bunches of Oats, and Honey Nut Cheerios)
Girl Scout cookies (love samoas!)
|Keep me away from these if you hope to get one.|
|White flour paradise.|
Swedish Fish (corn-syrupy goodness)
Spearmint leaf gummy candies (addicted, will eat an entire bag if not careful)
Coke Classic (the love of my life)
Dr. Pepper (2nd fiddle only to Mr. Coke)
Gummy Starburst candies (liquid-filled and can't eat less than the entire bag)
|Have tried to NOT eat an entire bag, many times. Have yet to succeed.|
Dairy Queen dipped cones (I'm supposed to avoid these when DQ FINALLY just opened?!)
|My cone of choice is cherry-dipped...335 calories for a SMALL.|
Frosted Blueberry Pop Tarts (random gas station purchase)
|Another food I could easily eat an entire box of in one sitting.|
"Big Daddy's" California Burger & homemade fries (WORTH EVERY CALORIE)
Reeses Mini Peanut Butter Cups (I've lost count how many I've snuck)
Assorted Movie Candy (faves are Good 'N Plenty, Jolly Rancher Gummies, and Hot Tamales)
Vanilla ice cream (topped with chocolate chips and Hershey's chocolate syrup, naturally!)
White bakery bread (with a gooey, delicious "everything" seasoning blend on it made of garlic, onion bits, and poppyseeds...YUM!)
|I snarfed the bread version of this bagel...just as delicious!|
|This cake is INSANE. So chocolatey I could only eat a small-ish piece.|
Ripple potato chips (with Top the Tater, naturally!), and HANDFULS of mini eclairs and frosted brownies (at niece Serra's church confirmation after-party...ridiculously indulgent, but again, worth every calorie)
|OMG. I have NO WORDS.|
My mouth was watering reading it, but I have to be done with the binging for now.
So, isn't it OBVIOUS what Kristin craves the most???
Yep. CARBS. Of all shapes, sizes, textures, and varieties. Pop, candy, pastries, chocolate, ice cream...and bread, pasta, cereal, pretzels, chips, etc. etc. etc. All of the foods I am denying myself every day, and all 100% to blame for my extra 40 pounds. When I stuck to my plan, exercised a little, and quit those foods...I lost 18.5 pounds, fairly quickly. Period.
Now I just have to do it again.
On to my new goals, my new resolve, and by summer, a much smaller me.