I realize that every once in awhile, over-eating is inevitable. It's going to happen. The dreaded "Food Events" of are going to gang-up on me sometimes. What I need to do is learn how to handle them better when they happen. Ideally, when I'm trying to lose 20+ more pounds, I'd sequester myself inside some kind of cocoon where there are no food temptations, no situations where everyone around me is eating all of the foods I love, and no deviation from my calorie-counting duties, my exercise machines, and my strict self-control.
Unfortunately, life doesn't roll that way. The past week has been tough for me, but not because I'm losing focus, or because I don't care about succeeding. I've had a very screwy week of eating. Monday was perfect, ending at 1100 calories. Tuesday was OK, with a lunch at Guadalajara at noon, but I skipped the chips and all but a couple bites of Spanish rice and tried the grilled shrimp and veggies, which was delicious. That evening I did 50 elliptical minutes, which felt great - and sure enough, I was down to 147.5 pounds on Wednesday morning. Wednesday was another great 1100-calorie day, combined with 60 treadmill minutes - but I was UP a half pound on Thursday morning. Looking back, I think that tiny disappointment must have mentally knocked me down more than I realized, because my self-control flew into the shitter on Thursday afternoon and stayed there until Saturday evening.
I did not do well between Thursday afternoon and Saturday night. I was on-track until 1:00 p.m. Thursday, and then... I LOST IT. I went out for lunch to J.B. Schneider's with my hubby, and instead of ordering the big salad I should have, I remember thinking about my morning scale disappointment for one second, and immediately followed that thought with this one: "I WANT BREAD."
I ordered what I thought would be an OK sandwich, filled with grilled veggies on Italian bread. It was delicious but greasy. I substituted tomato-basil soup for the fries, which was the only smart dieting choice I made the rest of that day. Back at work after lunch, it was as though the flood-gates opened - I was INSTANTLY famished all over again, within the hour, most likely from the unfamiliar white-flour bread carbs in my system. I inhaled FIVE Red Vines (similar to Twizzlers) and TEN mini Reeses Peanut Butter Cups (OH MY GOD!!!) within an hour of lunch. Yes, you read that right. I devoured 625 calories of sugar carbs without tasting or enjoying them, AT ALL, and the remorse afterward only amplified my misery.
|I first got addicted to Red Vines working at Hollywood Video. I ate an entire box every time I worked.|
|I discovered there is a strange, "Red Vine / Harry Potter Culture" in existence. Bizarre...|
|Yeah, they're small-ish. But TEN of them STILL contain 450 calories!!!!!!!|
|This is still my favorite frozen meal, after more than 7 months of eating them. A LOT of them.|
|The "real" Greek brands taste better, but Dannon's honey flavor has the fewest calories.|
|ADDICTIVE. I can eat a whole box and not even notice.|
|THIS is NOT a healthy breakfast.|
|With the high fructose syrup omitted, here's what you get now: Corn syrup, "liquid sugar" (natural sugar & water), lactic acid, cellulose gum, preservatives, caramel color, and a few other mysterious ingredients I can't pronounce.|
Can ANYONE OUT THERE explain to me why I felt the need to wolf down ANOTHER huge bowl of Golden Grahams at 10:00 p.m?!?!?!?
|Apparently, I cannot have these in the house.|
The following statement is of course just my opinion, but in case I haven't made my thoughts on the subject clear enough in the past, I'll repeat it now:
I. CANNOT. EAT. CARBS. WHEN. I. AM. DIETING.
I know that a human needs a certain amount of the RIGHT carbs to function. Those are not the kinds of carbs I'm talking about here. Obviously, the kind I mean are the ones that aren't whole-grains, vegetables, fruits, and beans - a.k.a. "healthy carbs." I mean white-flour, refined, processed, sugary carbs. When I eat them, I literally LOSE ALL CONTROL over any eating that follows.
I bought the "Carb-Addict's Diet" book years ago, and one of the first things written in that book is a list of questions designed to tell you what "type" of carb-addict you are. Based on your answers, it tells you whether your addiction to carbohydrates is mild, moderate, or severe.
Here's a link to this Quiz - EVERYONE should take this!!!
The Carbohydrate Addict's Quick Quiz
Guess which one I AM???
Yep. I'm a "SEVERE" carb-addict, according to the "Carb-Addict's Diet" book. So I guess it shouldn't really surprise me that eating the "wrong" kinds of carbs affects me so dramatically. I KNOW THIS about myself.
So why is it SO hard to avoid them???
I'll let you know when I solve that puzzle, and then I'll share my billions with you.
I'm SIX POUNDS heavier this morning than I was on Wednesday morning - that's just 96 HOURS ago!!! Needless to say, I'm pretty disgusted with myself today. Today will be a good day, though. I WILL consume no more than 1100 calories, and there WILL be an hour-long workout. The thought of anything else today is repulsive.